I’m back

After a several year hiatus, a divorce, a major job change, and many other life incidents. I’ve decided to renew this blog.  There are going to be changes here too.  More on movies, and seasons and celebrating the wheel of the year, probably less on tarot, but you never know.

My forecast for 2016.  A renewal of creative energy, more birding, more movies, more living.  Here’s hoping for less stress. – Lirala

Image shared from: http://www.incredibly.co/notes/the-art-of-creativity/

 

Busy

I’ve been too busy to post follow-ups to the card of day I’ve been doing. Gotta say that while I didn’t take to this deck as quickly as I thought it has been interesting during this busy time and actually informative.  I’m going to do catch up posts this week.

Vintage Witch Images

Vintage Witch

There’s a great collection of vintage witch images on Photobucket at: http://photobucket.com/images/vintage%20witch/?page=3

More can be found on flickr.com just search using the words ‘vintage witch’.  The internet is AWESOME for finding stuff.  I can’t imagine living without it anymore.  — Lirala

Living Life

Inner Voices

I had an epiphany recently. I was doing my evening stretches and thinking, pondering on the tarot card for the evening.  Osha Zen’s “Inner Voices” card.  As my mind wandered over my life and goals I realized that I had been focusing too much on weight loss (a theme of struggle co-dependent with my self image).  I had been making good progress over the past few years and needed to focus on what changes I had already made and how it made me feel.  I need to hear my inner voice that says to LIVE my life, not focus so much on my body that I forget to enjoy where I’m at and what I’m able to do.

As I continued to stretch and think I realized there is very little in my life that I want to do that I cannot because of weight.  The first thing I thought of was wearing high heels on a regular basis.  In high school I wore three inch heels everyday. Through most of my college life I wore them.  I miss wearing sexy shoes.  I have lost enough weight that I can wear high heeled ankle boots on days when I don’t have to walk much.  But wearing a regular gorgeous pump is still eluding me.

I can’t ride a bike comfortably. Perhaps because I haven’t really tried.  On the other hand, where am I going to ride it and why?   I live on a hill near fairly busy streets. For me to ride a bike like I used to I’d need to take it out to the countryside.  This is probably more of a practice issue than a  real physical cannot.  The same goes for riding horses. I don’t have one to ride regularly and I feel weird on one since I weigh 80 lbs more than I did when I had a horse.  It would probably be fine if I’d just practice.

There’s a lot of things that make me uncomfortable because I weigh so much. Things like airplane travel, though with how irksome security is now…   But I go swimming when I want, I can walk and go up stairs, dance, sing, laugh and even stand up after sitting on the floor.

So I can’t wear high heeled pumps.  Well BFD.  I’m healthy, I have a wonderful husband, great friends, a car that gets exceptional gas mileage, perhaps it is time to focus on the good and see if that won’t help this next 10 lbs melt away.